I am all confused....what about it????

hookay so whats up guys......I am sure everone is having a good time??? eh!! so am I!!! Well I never started blogging to say what people wanted to hear. It was rather the opposite. Anyways I am in a good mood and the colloquial "Old Monk" has done a good job. So how do you guys think is it gonna be for all of us? Are we like going to study and the probably get married go steady get divorced(or not), Have kids(or not), and then mebbe get working till we scrape our backs off and retire to our old age shelters, and then die of ol' age or mebee even contemplate suicide or say even do it? Is that it? Thats boring buddies!!! Has to be something different, i think so!!!But the recent trends prove otherwise. The market going down and marriages going sour....parents takin' a lickin', and all the bad stuff...sounds bad. But I guess there is still something that drives some kind of a sembelance into this frenzied, chaotic nebbulous life.....What is it? I wanna know. U see we can say so many things. You know like we are so advanced and that we know a lot, and science is doing great and blah blah blah...but seriously where are we. I mean I think that I am pretty much educated to make my own decisions but still I am at a loss. Why/ I dont know...Is it that i am lost? (dont know)....!!!I mean why am I even writing this shit? Dont know!!! Its weird this whole world has got sceintific basis for operating the way it is. It has moral basis for the same. We have ethics and we have a God....still things are pretty much stupid...why? I was told we are the most intelligent among animals.....doest not look that way!!! We are sadder than the saddest of all the miniscule creatures... Thats not me but I see it all round. Look at paul coelho who wrote the  Alchemist...I mean what did he have in mind to tell us that something else governs us and that we do exactly what we were meant to do.? I mean how ridiculous is that or say how right is that? Again dont know!!! I mean are we even in charge of ourselves? If not then why not? Why should not we be in charge......... I mean I know that if I write about some contemporary stuff and something that relates physically/emotionally...People would really read but what about our own self..There is so much confusion in my head and heart..and am sure the same holds true for evry one of us and still we are like duds , keeping shut all the while and doing nothing about it. We for gods sake dont even say it.....please for crying out loud. In the long and short of it the story boils down to a simple fact that we think that our being here is our privillege and that we can just live this life like drab and push off. i do not think so...Each one of us is here to do something. What is it is for us to know.....Again whos telling us that? I feel so lost!!! I mean I really dont know whats to be done...If only I knew what I had to do I would do it..... I am going crazy I guess.....but arnt we all....Its just a matter of time.........Well the future remains dark and its que sera sera.....So lets jus say we shall wait till that next time I feel good enough to write agin.....The next time I am gonna tell you guys about all the different guys I meet and how and why they do what they do.....I mean thats even more wierd but so is life. Anyways till then signing off and even if I dont make sense bear with me...The best shall come forth and it shall be "the Best' ever..........take care dude and gals and have fun. Life is yours live it your way. In fact 'Live like theres no tomorrow, Dream like You are gonna live forever"...dosveidania